( Wednesday, January 26, 2011 )

For Want of a Decision

I saw my life branching out before me like a green fig-tree in the story.

From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and off-beat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn’t quite make out.

I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig-tree, starving to death, just because I couldn’t make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.

(Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar)


Blogger Miss Ruth said...

This is how I feel too...

5:21 PM  
Blogger the Stewart said...

Well, just think, that was written back in 1962. By a world-famous author.

Of course, the book is "fictional-ish". And Plath ended up sticking her head in an oven and killing herself a week after it was published.

Really, I think the take-home message here is, you're not alone. And don't stick your head in an oven.

5:57 PM  
Blogger Miss Ruth said...

Yes, this is true. My head will not go into an oven. :)

12:45 PM  
Blogger comrade said...

What a beautiful and thoughtful/thought-provoking quote. It is very much a reality of the human experience. Thank you for posting it. I believe I will soon check out this book and learn more about Sylvia Plath.

8:25 PM  
Blogger Aishah said...


Wonderful writing, Interesting blog.

Sometimes I go by Forest Gump's Mama's 'Life is like a box of chocolate".

10:06 AM  
Blogger Inspector Clouseau said...

Nice work. I came across your blog while “blog surfing” using the Next Blog button on the blue Nav Bar located at the top of my blogger.com site. I frequently just travel around looking for other blogs which exist on the Internet, and the various, creative ways in which people express themselves. Thanks for sharing.

8:32 PM  
Blogger esbboston said...

Lately my life seems to have been chock full of boxing matches.

4:08 AM  

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